Pause in a headlong rush

February 2016

A blur
Familiar
To the
Myopic

Fading
Into grey
Unyielding
Concrete

Rushing headlong
Fast forward
Straight
To the end

And then
A pause.
Breathe.
Hold.

I forgot to exhale
Sentences became longer
Cadence slowed
Ploughed in, snowed under.

One second passes
Only once he blinks
Mellowed, floored,
I live a waltz.

Now mesmerised
Then fearful
I will, alone,
For languor.

Let me rest
I beg, fervent,
Let me savour
Let us be.

The habitual frenzy
Unwills
Makes merry
Skips ahead.

And I wrinkle
Fade faster
Burn brighter
As the last embers

Of a dying sun
That wishes instead

To live. To love.

Brown and Blue

January 2016 

You turn
Your smile
Shards of my eyes

Wave in the wind
Mocking, inviting
A leaf settles.

Brown... blink
Blank
Blue captures

Breeze lilts
Crooning
Careening

You touch
I die
Lifetimes

Are never enough
For eternity
Let me bury

In your warmth
In your shade
In your tempest

And I too
Envelop
Surround you

Madness unparalleled
You & me
Me & you

The pin drops.

The Beginning of Grey-Blue

November 2015

In my grey
Your blue
Washes
Over

Picks up
Tramples
Glorious
Effervescent

Lulls
Mesmerises
Opens my eyes 
New worlds

Worship
Is nonchalant
You devour
You flay

You challenge
You melt
In your love
I'm nought

But putty
Smooth hands
Own me
Decisive, possessive

My river roars
Unstoppable
Careening
Careering

I, a rag
A river in me
Content
To be washed in your wake.

Sunshine of my dawn

And then there was a pause
When time froze
When eye lashes stilled

When you and I
I and you
Merged seamlessly, silently

You wore your hurt
On your chin
Superficially brave

But I wore my longing
With abandon
Without cowardice

You wait for me
Stillness, calm
Settled like a butterfly

While I thrash heartily
Wanting now, instantly
Gluttonous and loud

You give in to worry
Your luminous eyes
Blinking doubts away

I am enthralled
Cocksure, arrogant
As if you are mine

In this midst
Have you woven
Your web of oneness

Locking us together
Barely breathing
In the embrace of life

In your touch
Time has frozen
The mind arrested

In your embrace
Memory shall fade
Fritter into fragments

In your gaze
I shall be destroyed
And made whole again

In your unspoken love
Shall we create
A universe of our own

And I too shall destroy
And you shall rise
Once again... phoenix-like...

Invincible
Glorious
Sunshine of my dawn.

Sculptor

Questions hang in the air
Like thin icicles
Unspoken unbeknownst
Plaguing the heart and head

We held hands
While minds were a maze
Locked in our universe
Crashing tumult

Sodden with blushes
Heat rising from the feet
Hunger of another kind
Blanking out memory

I found the answers then
As I gazed upon you
I found my answers
In your luminous eyes

In your skin of sunshine
Your lips of pearl
Your hands of gnarled wood
Precious, oh so precious

And in your proximity
Time stood still
And in that stillness
Rose a sculptor

Engraved, ensnared
Embattled, enthused
Chiselled away at me
Tore down defences

Broke down walls
Made me his home
Rested, famished
And feasted his eyes upon my old old soul.

And there, he too, found himself.

Serenity

When universes crash
Sun burst
Cloud burst
Mountains shift
Dazzling snow
Melts to rivers

And in the pouring rain
Bathed in gold
Eyes heavenward
Arms akimbo
Feet fluttering
Stood Serenity

Promise of life
Giver of hope
Rust of youth
Soothing lilting
Song of silence
Kiss of enigma

Serenity rose
Spread his wings
Engulfed her
Swallowed her whole
Imbibed her
Made her his

For eternity... 

Strangled

Mist steals over me
Clouds worm into my nose
Cold is my cousin
Of my blood, my own

I once pulled a plant
Out by the roots
So pretty, so pretty
I'll keep it forever

I watered and watched
Watered some more
Dismay every day
I shook it in a frenzy

Panic set in
Will it die? I asked
No, said he with compassion
No, with kindness

Why me? I cried
I only loved too much
But still lay my plant
Strangled, mesmeric, dead

When love is unending
A sort of choking begins
First of the ankles
Moving north ever so slowly

And when it reaches the brain
A caterwaul begins
Incessant shrieking
That drives the unloved ashamed

I lay my beloved
Withered leaves blowing
Reminders of intense love
The embers of possession

And I lay down near my beloved
Unseeing, unnerved
Becoming one with the earth
Where what I once loved rests.