tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48516617830370531392024-02-08T12:48:15.951-08:00Flash FrameUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger45125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-62541392757546945332019-12-22T04:17:00.000-08:002019-12-22T04:17:29.152-08:00The Cacophony<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<br />
<br />
Flames burning high<br />
<br />
Death, destruction, loot all around<br />
<br />
Evil men<br />
<br />
Pronounce judgement.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
In the deafening cacophony<br />
<br />
Of thoughts, screams, interests,<br />
<br />
Of mirages, half truths, lies,<br />
<br />
Of agendas, vengeance & shame.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
The weak mind wonders<br />
<br />
What to make<br />
<br />
Of injustice, inequality<br />
<br />
Of distress & its ramifications.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
The privileged never bleed<br />
<br />
Bloodshed is for the unknown<br />
<br />
Wounds & cracked skulls<br />
<br />
Are the seeds of radicalisation.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
Today's romance<br />
<br />
Is tomorrow's regret.<br />
<br />
Our children<br />
<br />
Will question.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
They will be criminalised<br />
<br />
Their blood will soak the streets<br />
<br />
They will lose their all<br />
<br />
In the vain hope of change.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
But we never taught them<br />
<br />
That rebellion is violent<br />
<br />
We told them it was glorious<br />
<br />
We said it would bring meaning.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
We never showed them<br />
<br />
That rebellion is irreversible<br />
<br />
That life will change forever<br />
<br />
And they will never be the same again.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
We never told them<br />
<br />
That our words are laced with propaganda<br />
<br />
With hate, not toward them<br />
<br />
We ushered them to their destiny.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
Without regret, without shame<br />
<br />
We let them take the beatings<br />
<br />
We let them break their bones<br />
<br />
We let them go into police stations<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
We let them cry in rage<br />
<br />
We provoked them onto the streets<br />
<br />
We let them believe half truths<br />
<br />
We fed them lies.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
And then in the end<br />
<br />
When the ashes go cold<br />
<br />
We will tell them they did well<br />
<br />
But we will never say<br />
<br />
<br />
That their lives are ruined<br />
<br />
Forever<br />
<br />
That they are criminals<br />
<br />
Forever.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
That the police will come to their homes<br />
<br />
Every time something goes wrong<br />
<br />
That they will be looked upon<br />
<br />
As criminals, Maoists, terrorists.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
We did not tell them<br />
<br />
That we created that future<br />
<br />
For them, knowingly<br />
<br />
Deliberately<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
To further our own gains<br />
<br />
To satisfy our own agendas<br />
<br />
We who sit in comfort<br />
<br />
We who never bleed.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
We who manipulate<br />
<br />
As much as the ones we hate<br />
<br />
We who have no soul<br />
<br />
In our quest for vengeance.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
We never told you<br />
<br />
That you are, but a tool<br />
<br />
We will forget you soon<br />
<br />
And move on to the next generation.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br /></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-83204540097167689782019-02-02T21:32:00.002-08:002019-02-02T21:42:16.215-08:00The End of Grey-Blue<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">February 3, 2019 </span></b></div>
<b></b><i></i><u></u><sub></sub><sup></sup><strike></strike><br />
<br />
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She wandered</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">As
passersby looked askance</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">At the
unstoppable tears</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Streaming.
</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">The river
in her</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Had
turned into the sea</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She
wandered </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Looking
for herself. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">The self
she had lost</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">To the
sea roaring</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">The salt
drying </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">On her
eyelashes. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Breaking
them </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">One by
one</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She
wandered </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">To the
familiar. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">The
memories</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Of a
river</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She sat </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">At the
same tables. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She
looked through </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">The same
eyes</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">The
memories </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Of blue
now </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Turned
again </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Into
unrelenting grey</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She
looked through </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">The sea
furious</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Straining
to see</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">If the
memories </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Still
lived </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">In her,
yes. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She
counted her steps </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">On the
concrete</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">A gaping
hole in her</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Filled
with a swirling sea. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She
mocked herself</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">For her
vanity</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">For
believing in love</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">For
believing. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She
turned on herself</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Clawing at
her sea-filled eyes </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Talons in
her stomach</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Ice in
her veins. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She
screamed endlessly</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Without a
sound</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">The
traitor heart</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Elsewhere,
forever. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She is
waiting </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">For her
mind </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">To tell
her</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">To stop
the pain. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Incoherent,
she waits</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">For some
order</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">A final
decision </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">That final
push. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">She drowned
in the violent sea</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Of her
own making</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">What is
left is the shell </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Which too
must turn to ash. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">That familiar
jumble</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">That
familiar horror and anxiety </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">That
familiar madness</span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt;">Has crept
up again. </span></div>
<br />
<div style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<span style="font-family: "garamond" , "serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">The end is blessedly near.</span><b></b><i></i><u></u><sub></sub><sup></sup><strike></strike></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-39806399087034142682016-11-10T01:51:00.002-08:002016-11-10T01:53:03.185-08:00The Elf, The Reindeer, North & South <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<b>November 2016</b><br />
<b><br /></b>
"Do you know," began the elf, his significant ears evident. "What it is like to be loved?"<br />
<br />
"Oh yes, I do indeed," cried the reindeer. "I have been well-loved... an age ago."<br />
<br />
"Oh, but you haven't," exclaimed the elf leaning in closer, blue eyes alight. "Not unless you've been loved by the North-South. Anyone loved by the North-South is destroyed forever."<br />
<br />
"The North-South..." pondered the reindeer. "What is that like?"<br />
<br />
"I have been loved," said the little elf. "I am. I will be. Unto eternity."<br />
<br />
"It is like mist," he said. "It gets into your eyes, your nose, your pores, your lungs and leaves you blind, panicked, not knowing where you are going and when the fall shall come."<br />
<br />
"And it is like cloud. Light, wispy, delightful and makes you believe you are soaring high, where no sorrow of the world can touch you."<br />
<br />
"It completes and undoes. The maddening passion, reckless desire, all stops blown out, your old wounds reopened and nursed back to nothingness. New wounds, more painful than the dull ache of the old scars, weight in my heart while my body and mind soar with abandon."<br />
<br />
"She will seduce, amuse, rouse unknown intensities of emotion, she will toss you, flip you, discard you without mercy. She will shower you with the love of a thousand good women - of mothers and lovers and wives and daughters. And she will imbibe you somehow - you will merge into her and you will surge with her and you will fall with her. She will scream, cry, accuse you of betrayal, of deserting her, of not having loved enough, of not having loved at all. She will breeze into your world and take it over as you watch, rapt, unblinking, mesmerised by this creature with the laughter of a lifetime, the love of eternity, the curse of extremity."<br />
<br />
"Did you fall under her spell?" asked the reindeer in wonder.<br />
<br />
"Fall?" laughed the elf as he scratched the mole behind his ear. "I was consumed. I ceased to exist. I gave myself to her riptide, tossed about willingly, almost joyously, as a broken catamaran."<br />
<br />
"But?" asked the reindeer, suddenly fearful.<br />
<br />
"When North-South loves..." began the elf slowly. "There always comes a time when the storm passes. And in a snap of the fingers, she will leave. Without looking back. Perhaps, even without saying goodbye."<br />
<br />
"Are you not afraid?" cried the reindeer, panic stricken now for his friend, the blue-eyed elf with the mole behind his ear and the roots turned silver.<br />
<br />
"But I do not exist anymore!" said the elf, smiling softly as the memory of a kiss overtook him.<br />
<br />
<br />
And he hummed and he skipped and he surfed the cloud, awaiting, almost fearlessly, the next fall. </div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-9267122417897733282016-11-10T01:50:00.000-08:002016-11-10T01:50:52.259-08:00Childhood Nightmare <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<b>October 2016</b><br />
<br />
Is loving a sin?<br />
Can desire be bitter?<br />
Can we learn<br />
To lie like truth?<br />
<br />
I lay like truth today<br />
That familiar bitterness<br />
Seeping from my pores<br />
Sinner, liar, layer.<br />
<br />
And it dripped<br />
And dripped<br />
And dripped<br />
Slow, rhythmic<br />
<br />
Now a faster cadence<br />
And I, fearful, boxed in<br />
Lonely, unheard<br />
The drip-drip overwhelmed<br />
<br />
Drowned me<br />
As I fought futile<br />
And suddenly, blink!<br />
Silence again<br />
<br />
Far in the distance<br />
Of memory<br />
Woke a child. </div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-72364679597900699872016-11-10T01:44:00.000-08:002016-11-10T01:44:25.522-08:00Nothing Is Lost Forever<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<b>October 2016</b><br />
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When humans found language<br />
They lost something.<br />
For some experiences<br />
There can be no words.<br />
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I saw a butterfly today<br />
Dead and disintegrating<br />
Food for ants<br />
From death was given life.<br />
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I read somewhere yesterday<br />
"Nothing is lost forever"<br />
Truer words were not written.<br />
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Gazing upon the almost<br />
Non-existent brow<br />
Putting my lips to them<br />
I experience a surge of something.<br />
<br />
Affection? Love? Not quite.<br />
I'll call it ITA.<br />
I don't know what it means<br />
<br />
When I press my lips<br />
To the cheek, close to the eyes<br />
The soft chubby part<br />
I know I want that forever<br />
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When I feel a gaze upon me<br />
I know it is mine alone<br />
Every second we morph<br />
And change.<br />
<br />
One second we're performing<br />
One character<br />
Another second,<br />
Quite another.<br />
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Are we one thing or many?<br />
Is ITA the same or varied?<br />
Does my ITA experience<br />
Emerge similarly in another?<br />
One will never know.<br />
<br />
I want to polish my soul<br />
Cobwebs have built around it<br />
My spiders are hard at work.<br />
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I want to give up ego<br />
I want to give up identity<br />
I want to give up position<br />
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I want to win.<br />
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And I want the dusty rail<br />
Carriages of my country<br />
To crow about how<br />
<br />
A man came once<br />
On a pony, on a boat, on a truck<br />
And laughed so hard<br />
Delighted with himself.<br />
<br />
Blue eyes shining<br />
And looked up at the sky<br />
Opened his arms<br />
And let go - of ego, identity, position<br />
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And won... at long last.<br />
<br />
In the pouring rain<br />
On red earth<br />
We will melt and dissolve<br />
Merge into one.<br />
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Someday... maybe.<br />
"Nothing is lost forever."<br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-30801412309116846212016-11-10T01:36:00.002-08:002016-11-10T01:53:28.965-08:00Irrational Fears <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">June 2016</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Night rushes in</span><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Fog falls over my mind<br />Heavy, unwieldy<br />I search for you.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Breath catches<br />Frantic now<br />Irrational, afraid,<br />That you are gone.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">When I know<br />You will stay<br />You will love<br />You will be.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And I know too<br />You care<br />More than<br />Anyone can.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I also know<br />Spring is round the corner<br />Winters never last<br />Your sunshine envelops.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">But fickle, the mind<br />Afraid to lose<br />Fearful of no<br />Terrified of dislike.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">And I know too<br />If indifference arrives<br />It will affect just one<br />Never the twain.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Dread and love<br />Are rancid<br />No peace can exist<br />But in your arms.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I love you. </span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-24909178478654398832016-11-10T01:34:00.002-08:002016-11-10T01:34:56.929-08:00Moss <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><b>April 09, 2016</b></span><div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><div class="gmail_default" style="color: #666666; display: inline;">
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I wish<br />To grow<br />Moss upon<br />Your mind</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Encroach you<br />Suffocate<br />Will you<br />To my thoughts</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Give you<br />A new pair<br />Of eyes<br />Look!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Mesmeric<br />Uncontrolled<br />Beauty resides<br />Within</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Fierce<br />Uncontrollable<br />Unconditional<br />Passion</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Not of the body<br />No<br />Of centuries<br />Of time</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Of wasted youth<br />Of wasteful lives<br />Of redemption<br />Of its relief</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Passion indeed<br />Of souls kindred<br />Of the other half<br />Not better</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Merely identical<br />Never<br />The body<br />No.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Let my moss<br />Grow<br />On your mind<br />Let me be</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Your filter<br />That turns<br />Yellow light<br />Into gold</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Let me be<br />Your aching feet<br />Let me be<br />The thought</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">That warms<br />Let me be<br />The second skin<br />Of endless lustre</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Of hyperbole<br />Of beginnings<br />Of rapture<br />Of song</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Lie on me<br />Let me grow<br />Over you<br />Joined forever</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br />Under the wet earth. </span></div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-90750381717674820222016-03-26T10:22:00.005-07:002016-03-26T10:22:52.915-07:00Photochrome <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<b>March 2016</b><br />
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<span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">What kin am I</span><span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"> </span><br />
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You asked<br />Who are you<br />Anyway?</div>
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Something<br />Somewhere<br />Somehow<br />Intensely familiar</div>
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Aggrandised maybe<br />Larger than life<br />Larger than you<br />Larger than me</div>
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We hold on<br />In desperation<br />Clinging<br />Pleading even</div>
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A minute longer<br />Let me be<br />Let me love<br />Lost in you</div>
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For when you leave<br />Shadows fall<br />When you go<br />I do too</div>
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Wide eyed<br />Rapt<br />Lips puckered<br />I wish you</div>
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Wish you whole<br />Wish you happy<br />Wish you in the flesh<br />Will you with memory</div>
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Someday<br />Somewhere<br />Somehow </div>
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You will cease</div>
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And I will cease<br />With you. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-78160351372200550262016-03-26T10:21:00.001-07:002016-03-26T10:21:27.166-07:00Pause in a headlong rush <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<b>February 2016</b><br />
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A blur<br />Familiar<br />To the<br />Myopic</div>
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Fading<br />Into grey<br />Unyielding<br />Concrete</div>
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Rushing headlong<br />Fast forward<br />Straight<br />To the end</div>
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And then<br />A pause.<br />Breathe.<br />Hold.</div>
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I forgot to exhale<br />Sentences became longer<br />Cadence slowed<br />Ploughed in, snowed under.</div>
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One second passes<br />Only once he blinks<br />Mellowed, floored,<br />I live a waltz.</div>
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Now mesmerised<br />Then fearful<br />I will, alone,<br />For languor.</div>
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Let me rest<br />I beg, fervent,<br />Let me savour<br />Let us be.</div>
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The habitual frenzy<br />Unwills<br />Makes merry<br />Skips ahead.</div>
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And I wrinkle<br />Fade faster<br />Burn brighter<br />As the last embers</div>
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<br />Of a dying sun<br />That wishes instead</div>
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To live. To love.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-61223791395711465552016-03-26T10:19:00.003-07:002016-03-26T10:19:35.462-07:00Brown and Blue <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<b>January 2016 </b><br />
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You turn<br />Your smile<br />Shards of my eyes</div>
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Wave in the wind<br />Mocking, inviting<br />A leaf settles.</div>
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Brown... blink<br />Blank<br />Blue captures</div>
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Breeze lilts<br />Crooning<br />Careening</div>
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You touch<br />I die<br />Lifetimes</div>
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Are never enough<br />For eternity<br />Let me bury</div>
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In your warmth<br />In your shade<br />In your tempest</div>
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And I too<br />Envelop<br />Surround you</div>
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Madness unparalleled<br />You & me<br />Me & you</div>
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The pin drops.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-76339222440278514012016-03-26T10:07:00.000-07:002016-03-26T10:07:18.700-07:00The Beginning of Grey-Blue <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<b>November 2015</b><br />
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In my grey<br />Your blue<br />Washes<br />Over</div>
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Picks up<br />Tramples<br />Glorious<br />Effervescent</div>
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Lulls<br />Mesmerises<br />Opens my eyes <br />New worlds</div>
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Worship<br />Is nonchalant<br />You devour<br />You flay</div>
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You challenge<br />You melt<br />In your love<br />I'm nought</div>
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But putty<br />Smooth hands<br />Own me<br />Decisive, possessive</div>
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My river roars<br />Unstoppable<br />Careening<br />Careering</div>
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I, a rag<br />A river in me<br />Content<br />To be washed in your wake.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-42992987646039207872015-05-03T04:48:00.002-07:002015-05-03T04:48:53.981-07:00Sunshine of my dawn<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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And then there was a pause<br />When time froze<br />When eye lashes stilled</div>
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When you and I<br />I and you<br />Merged seamlessly, silently</div>
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You wore your hurt<br />On your chin<br />Superficially brave</div>
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But I wore my longing<br />With abandon<br />Without cowardice</div>
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You wait for me<br />Stillness, calm<br />Settled like a butterfly</div>
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While I thrash heartily<br />Wanting now, instantly<br />Gluttonous and loud</div>
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You give in to worry<br />Your luminous eyes<br />Blinking doubts away</div>
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I am enthralled<br />Cocksure, arrogant<br />As if you are mine</div>
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In this midst<br />Have you woven<br />Your web of oneness</div>
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Locking us together<br />Barely breathing<br />In the embrace of life</div>
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In your touch<br />Time has frozen<br />The mind arrested</div>
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In your embrace<br />Memory shall fade<br />Fritter into fragments</div>
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In your gaze<br />I shall be destroyed<br />And made whole again</div>
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In your unspoken love<br />Shall we create<br />A universe of our own</div>
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And I too shall destroy<br />And you shall rise<br />Once again... phoenix-like...</div>
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Invincible<br />Glorious<br />Sunshine of my dawn.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-78724305891161988502015-04-19T02:10:00.001-07:002015-04-19T02:10:19.174-07:00Sculptor<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Questions hang in the air<br />Like thin icicles<br />Unspoken unbeknownst<br />Plaguing the heart and head</div>
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We held hands<br />While minds were a maze<br />Locked in our universe<br />Crashing tumult</div>
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Sodden with blushes<br />Heat rising from the feet<br />Hunger of another kind<br />Blanking out memory</div>
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I found the answers then<br />As I gazed upon you<br />I found my answers<br />In your luminous eyes</div>
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In your skin of sunshine<br />Your lips of pearl<br />Your hands of gnarled wood<br />Precious, oh so precious</div>
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And in your proximity<br />Time stood still<br />And in that stillness<br />Rose a sculptor</div>
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Engraved, ensnared<br />Embattled, enthused<br />Chiselled away at me<br />Tore down defences</div>
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Broke down walls<br />Made me his home<br />Rested, famished<br />And feasted his eyes upon my old old soul.</div>
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And there, he too, found himself.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-68886446437747657732015-03-23T22:48:00.000-07:002015-03-23T22:48:06.501-07:00Serenity<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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When universes crash<br />Sun burst<br />Cloud burst<br />Mountains shift<br />Dazzling snow<br />Melts to rivers</div>
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And in the pouring rain<br />Bathed in gold<br />Eyes heavenward<br />Arms akimbo<br />Feet fluttering<br />Stood Serenity</div>
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Promise of life<br />Giver of hope<br />Rust of youth<br />Soothing lilting<br />Song of silence<br />Kiss of enigma</div>
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Serenity rose<br />Spread his wings<br />Engulfed her<br />Swallowed her whole<br />Imbibed her<br />Made her his</div>
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For eternity... </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-47550226887344573772015-03-17T00:32:00.002-07:002015-03-17T00:32:22.287-07:00Strangled<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Mist steals over me<br />Clouds worm into my nose<br />Cold is my cousin<br />Of my blood, my own</div>
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I once pulled a plant<br />Out by the roots<br />So pretty, so pretty<br />I'll keep it forever</div>
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I watered and watched<br />Watered some more<br />Dismay every day<br />I shook it in a frenzy</div>
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Panic set in<br />Will it die? I asked<br />No, said he with compassion<br />No, with kindness</div>
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Why me? I cried<br />I only loved too much<br />But still lay my plant<br />Strangled, mesmeric, dead</div>
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When love is unending<br />A sort of choking begins<br />First of the ankles<br />Moving north ever so slowly</div>
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And when it reaches the brain<br />A caterwaul begins<br />Incessant shrieking<br />That drives the unloved ashamed</div>
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I lay my beloved<br />Withered leaves blowing<br />Reminders of intense love<br />The embers of possession</div>
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And I lay down near my beloved<br />Unseeing, unnerved<br />Becoming one with the earth<br />Where what I once loved rests.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-49970674682096890782015-02-19T09:49:00.000-08:002015-02-19T09:49:00.683-08:00Surrender<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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His own little trove<br />A secret place<br />To hide his own</div>
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And there he hid<br />His thoughts of whorls<br />His mind of loops<br />His searing intellect</div>
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His unending words<br />With the improbable smile<br />His heart of cardboard<br />His life of salt</div>
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His dreary profession<br />His love of challenge<br />His hint of mockery<br />His irreverence</div>
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He hid his dreams<br />He burrowed ambiguities<br />His indiscipline<br />His wandering wish</div>
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He covered up hope<br />His myriad defences<br />His immortal fear<br />His unforgiving lust</div>
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He buried his heart<br />His very being<br />By the beach<br />And laughed in triumph</div>
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Not knowing<br />Never believing<br />The sea would vanquish<br />His treasure</div>
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And when the thoughts of whorls<br />The mind of loops<br />The heart fickle<br />The razor intellect</div>
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Were teased out<br />By the menacing sea<br />And consumed<br />And swirled</div>
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And tossed helpless<br />Into depths of green<br />He knew then<br />And forever</div>
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How powerless was he<br />How love could consume<br />How love could destroy<br />Wreak sweet vengeance</div>
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And he was adrift<br />For ever more<br />As his prizes twinkled<br />And shone bright</div>
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<br />Under the moonlight<br />On the tranquil sea<br />Of surrender.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-10293358687701890982014-06-30T02:29:00.004-07:002014-06-30T02:29:38.010-07:00Roots (June 2014)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Lilting, she smoothes the furrows,</div>
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Time, undemanding </div>
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A caress from a different world</div>
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A world ageless and peerless</div>
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Shadows yawn ahead</div>
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Light made irrelevant</div>
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Water and land become one</div>
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The creases of her mind ironed out</div>
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Stillness all around</div>
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Silent breath of the mangroves</div>
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Life teeming silently at her feet</div>
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Graveyards of the urban mind</div>
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Strewn with reckless remains</div>
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Of chaos and useless wrecks </div>
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And shells of human beings</div>
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And from those watery graves</div>
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She rises once again</div>
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Reinvents and rejuvenates</div>
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A new dawn in her supple heart</div>
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What must be rebuilt</div>
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Needs destruction first</div>
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Change and a new order</div>
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Will subsume the old</div>
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And she of the eternal </div>
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Giver of life, filter of the sun</div>
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Survivor and warrior,</div>
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Conqueror of time and age</div>
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She, the old, shall vanquish the new</div>
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She shall destroy her whole</div>
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And purpose and being</div>
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With the lilting mesmeric flow</div>
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Comes a new dawn</div>
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This too is mine, she knows</div>
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All of this, every life here</div>
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Every root </div>
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Every hardy leaf</div>
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Every dancing shadow</div>
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Every grain of sand</div>
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Every drop of water</div>
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Every blue</div>
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Every brown</div>
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Every gray </div>
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Every green</div>
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Every red</div>
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Every yellow</div>
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Every wind</div>
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Every shore</div>
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Every silence</div>
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All mine… </div>
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She is born again. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-62181178335125832602014-06-29T10:27:00.001-07:002014-06-29T10:27:34.042-07:00Numbness (March 2013)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
When did the numbness settle in<div>
Did it creep in or was it always there? </div>
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Did it nudge itself into a wedge</div>
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A small crevice that no one knew was there</div>
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Until it burrowed in</div>
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And wormed through</div>
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And wormed through</div>
<div>
And nudged</div>
<div>
And poked</div>
<div>
And prodded</div>
<div>
And dug</div>
<div>
And dug</div>
<div>
And dug</div>
<div>
Until there was a hole </div>
<div>
In my black soul.</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Goodbye peace. </div>
</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-44692116391424636602014-05-17T09:03:00.001-07:002014-05-17T09:03:08.481-07:00The Match<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Pierce<div>
Search</div>
<div>
Probe<br /><div>
Challenge</div>
</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Look</div>
<div>
Uneasy</div>
<div>
Look</div>
<div>
Away</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Soften</div>
<div>
Crinkle</div>
<div>
Hesitate</div>
<div>
Smile</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Waver</div>
<div>
Unwilling</div>
<div>
Urge</div>
<div>
Doubt</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Relent</div>
<div>
Want</div>
<div>
Watch</div>
<div>
Wait</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
A match is struck...</div>
</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-45114371153966412122014-05-17T08:24:00.005-07:002014-05-17T08:24:57.182-07:00Unencumbered Waltz<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222; font-family: arial; font-size: small;">
I lean on your thoughts </div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222; font-family: arial; font-size: small;">
Your magic all-encompassing </div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222; font-family: arial; font-size: small;">
Yearning, now second nature<br />For a future out of reach. </div>
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<br /></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222; font-family: arial; font-size: small;">
Afraid and alone<br />But with your hand in mine<br />As we reach out<br />Across time, across space. </div>
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<br /></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222; font-family: arial; font-size: small;">
Our waltz is unencumbered<br />By society's frills<br />You and I...<br />Just you and I.</div>
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<br /></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222; font-family: arial; font-size: small;">
In a universe created<br />In an embrace manufactured<br />In a wild illusion<br />Of melancholy and soaring joy. </div>
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<br /></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222; font-family: arial; font-size: small;">
Our lives are intertwined<br />Inextricably conjoined<br />We walk as one<br />Sing as one. </div>
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<br /></div>
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But the traitor yearns<br />Loves more every day<br />Until it will burst<br />And be still evermore. </div>
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<br /></div>
<div dir="ltr" style="color: #222222; font-family: arial; font-size: small;">
You are mine<br />And as the wind whispers by<br />As the light of dusk settles<br />As night yawns ahead </div>
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<br /></div>
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Solitude and silence<br />Shall be my fate<br />As I love you<br />With fervour and pain </div>
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<br /></div>
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With insanity breached<br />With the love of a billion lifetimes<br />And hope that that love<br />Will find an echo for me. </div>
</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-9486480596014413132014-05-17T08:19:00.001-07:002014-05-17T08:19:50.633-07:00Rebellion (October 2013)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
The haze is meant to confound<br />
It is the nature of the beast<br />
Battle it, oh do try and watch<br />
Its relentlessness increase.<br />
<br />
Is this the end of time?<br />
Questions that killed better men<br />
Hound me, make me reckless<br />
And I search for purpose once again.<br />
<br />
The heart is fickle<br />
It baulks when confronted by the mind<br />
Questions age-old, yet unanswered<br />
Who am I? What am I? Why am I?<br />
<br />
My words are empty<br />
My silences in vain<br />
You echo my thoughts<br />
But with deep disdain.<br />
<br />
Enough, I cry, I can't take any more<br />
Oh! But you will, it says,<br />
Because you are strong<br />
And supple and fickle of heart.<br />
<br />
The world shall not wear me down<br />
I sing no song impure<br />
Higher meanings and intents aside<br />
The tangible beckons with allure.<br />
<br />
I stand up for justice<br />
The costs incalculable<br />
I cannot redeem myself<br />
But my heart knows... it always knows.<br />
<br />
Which tree is mine, which wing works<br />
And where North lies<br />
I am meant to stretch and preen and soar<br />
However cloudy the skies.<br />
<br />
And battle the winds and debris<br />
And ruffle a few feathers<br />
And come out of it all scathed<br />
But wiser and weathered.<br />
<br />
My love be poured unstintingly<br />
Into my cause, no matter what it be<br />
And may I sleep in peace at night<br />
Knowing I was just and free.<br />
<br />
Brickbats will rain, pushes and pulls<br />
Will be heaped on me galore<br />
But never let it be said she was unjust<br />
Nor wavered evermore.<br />
<br />
But where do I go, what path do I tread<br />
What road to take so blind<br />
Sticks nor stones will break my bones<br />
And nor should words unkind.<br />
<br />
Directionless, without destiny I embark<br />
Only knowing that I must go<br />
Down that road<br />
Much less travelled before.<br />
<br />
Poet? Visionary? Saint?<br />
Neither of these am I<br />
Truth be told, the certainty is<br />
The norm I must defy.<br />
<br />
It will come, it must come<br />
Wherever I may be<br />
To justify my existence<br />
Is just to be fair and free.<br />
<br /></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-64816660700011303692014-05-17T07:54:00.000-07:002014-05-17T07:54:15.318-07:00Rocky Road (October 2012)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
A decade of emptiness<br />
Seemingly insurmountable pain<br />
And suddenly... a crossroads.<br />
<br />
I breathed in deep<br />
And stilled my mind<br />
Willed my body.<br />
<br />
Courage is a deserter<br />
I shackled it, squirming, within me<br />
And put one bold foot ahead.<br />
<br />
And so life comes to a pass<br />
Where confusion reigns<br />
Where doubts are like pebbles.<br />
<br />
And I want to...<br />
I need to...<br />
What?<br />
<br />
My love continues to hum<br />
The mind tries to adjust<br />
To a life lesser lived.<br />
<br />
Do we have second chances?<br />
I would love some more<br />
And cry a little less.<br />
<br />
My journey has begun<br />
Faith has been set in motion<br />
It is upto me to gallop.<br />
<br />
And I shy away from permanent bonds<br />
Preferring fluidity to lucidity<br />
Afraid of... what?<br />
<br />
Life can shatter in the blink of an eye<br />
I know only too well<br />
It is only love that keeps us sane.<br />
<br />
So off I go wandering again<br />
On my eternal quest<br />
A hand shielding me from the sun.<br />
<br />
Follow me, love me,<br />
Swallow me whole<br />
I am love incarnate.<br />
<br />
Worship me, revile me<br />
I am bit of you too<br />
Rebel, poet, conformist.<br />
<br /></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-41173836837952203022014-05-17T07:49:00.000-07:002014-05-17T07:49:07.197-07:00Battle On (October 2012)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Hope, he says, with conviction<br />
And I listen in silence<br />
My heart beats elsewhere<br />
In the palms of my people so deep.<br />
<br />
They will always ridicule<br />
They will always throw stones<br />
They will bring carnage and wreck our souls<br />
But they are me and I am them.<br />
<br />
The lanterns burn high<br />
And the wave threatens to swallow<br />
But I stand firm<br />
Unrelenting, unforgiving, a renegade.<br />
<br />
I question unwaveringly<br />
No flicker of doubt<br />
My oldest enemy and my best friend<br />
My constant companion in my journey.<br />
<br />
But I shake my shoulders<br />
And square them<br />
I puff my chest out<br />
And stand strong.<br />
<br />
No one can trample me<br />
Because I refuse<br />
And no one will go where I go<br />
Because the stones are many.<br />
<br />
And the blood flows true<br />
But I will go alone<br />
And I will battle on<br />
Them... my own, my very own.<br />
<br />
And I sit in silence<br />
With the wind in my hair<br />
Laughter in my eyes<br />
Love in my murmurs.<br />
<br />
And I know that no matter what<br />
With no knowledge of my destination<br />
With no idea where to turn<br />
No inkling as to where I am going<br />
<br />
No matter the stones<br />
No matter the generosities<br />
No matter the indifference<br />
I will strive on.<br />
<br />
I will run and stumble<br />
I will pick myself up<br />
And I will run some more<br />
Until the ends of the earth. </div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-70131751234406329142014-05-17T07:42:00.002-07:002014-05-17T07:42:30.720-07:00Magic? (May 2012)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
My magic floats on my fingertips<br />
Crackling, straining to be free<br />
But I give it tighter rein<br />
As I search for my haven.<br />
<br />
Red bleeds all around me<br />
A courageous thorn in vain<br />
Love, like us, must return<br />
To the ashes that we make of it.<br />
<br />
My heart yet skips a beat<br />
And yearns for your sublime love<br />
How long will my magic be<br />
Tethered, fettered and close?<br />
<br />
What does time do?<br />
How does it erode and fritter away<br />
And chip away at invisible chinks<br />
Like a deep draught of a favourite wine.<br />
<br />
We go where we come from<br />
And in us is a bit of everyone<br />
When it's my time, will I remember<br />
To haul my love along?<br />
<br />
Or will it too, like my magic<br />
Remain fettered and unsung<br />
And unexploited...<br />
<br />
Will no one see my love?<br />
Will no one respond?<br />
Is my haven still-born?<br />
<br /></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4851661783037053139.post-39592109452467627662013-09-12T04:26:00.002-07:002013-09-12T04:26:42.769-07:00Claustrophobia<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">The ringing screams louder,
the silence after closes in… the walls near, inch ever so slowly closer… the
heart steps up pace, wanting to push itself out of its cage.</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Ambition unquenched is the
mother of ills… repetition the sin of the cowardly… the meek may inherit the
earth but the brave shall change it irrevocably. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I wander deliriously –
always in my mind… always in my thoughts and dreams and in despair. The body
has put down roots unwillingly. The heart lusts for new adventures, new places,
new people, new experiences. But the body remains glued. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Recklessness is the
consequence of claustrophobia… the clank of chains yields to the inevitable
collapse of rules that bind. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">The hopelessness of a
generation numbs the mind. Change cannot come so easily – war must be waged for
change to envelop the old and the seedy. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<br />
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">As I struggle against the
push, rail against the pull, my claustrophobia remains unseen, unheard,
unconquered. When shove arrives… I wonder which will break first. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
</div>
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